Hmm....
Well, this thing's been bogging me for years. I've kept it within me all along. Everyday, it's been like a caged beast, thrashing around, wanting to be unleashed. But I've kept mum about it, cos it's embarrassing....
Why the secrecy? If I wanna keep it a secret, why will I wanna talk bout it now? Cos I can't hold it any longer, I need to let it all out. I don't care if it'll tarnish my reputation, neither do I care if it'll make my parents angry with me. I don't care anymore.
After so many years, I've had it, all these pretendence. Trying to mask this fact........just so that I can still lift up my head, when in fact, all I've been facing this world in, has been a mask all along. The real me never dared to come out. But it's different now, I shall stop hiding, I will tell everyone this secret I held so dearly.
My friends will despise me, my families desert me, and those who don't know me, will laugh at me. But I shan't give a damn, cos if I keep my mouth shut any longer, my fuse might just snap.
If you guys are truly my frens.......then promise...you won't laugh at me, nor despise me after you read what you're gonna read. For it has been my utmost secret for years, and I didn't dare tell it even to my dearest. Please, our frenship, our bond, it's extremely important to me, and I don't want to lose it just because of this dumb secret.
I'm sweating as I'm typing this. Things have never looked so bad.....never have I felt like this....never have I felt that I'm gonna lose everything overnight. But I shd've known that this day's coming. From the day I did that thing. I shd never have done that. And I still feel guilty, damnit, I've been such an asshole..
Conscience? Moral? Well, nah....if I'd those, I wouldn't have kept mum bout it for so long....It's just the mental stress I can't handle no longer.....before I say it all out and cast myself into lifetime damnation. I'd like to apologize...to whom I'm saying sorry to is none of your concerns. Just know that I'm sorry and if I'd a second chance, I never would have done it.
*takes a deep breath* Oh well....here it goes...it was that day...that time...I could never forget.....I wanted to try it at least once in my life......and so I did it, I typed all these to waste your time and now I'm feeling proud of it.
Hi.
Why the secrecy? If I wanna keep it a secret, why will I wanna talk bout it now? Cos I can't hold it any longer, I need to let it all out. I don't care if it'll tarnish my reputation, neither do I care if it'll make my parents angry with me. I don't care anymore.
After so many years, I've had it, all these pretendence. Trying to mask this fact........just so that I can still lift up my head, when in fact, all I've been facing this world in, has been a mask all along. The real me never dared to come out. But it's different now, I shall stop hiding, I will tell everyone this secret I held so dearly.
My friends will despise me, my families desert me, and those who don't know me, will laugh at me. But I shan't give a damn, cos if I keep my mouth shut any longer, my fuse might just snap.
If you guys are truly my frens.......then promise...you won't laugh at me, nor despise me after you read what you're gonna read. For it has been my utmost secret for years, and I didn't dare tell it even to my dearest. Please, our frenship, our bond, it's extremely important to me, and I don't want to lose it just because of this dumb secret.
I'm sweating as I'm typing this. Things have never looked so bad.....never have I felt like this....never have I felt that I'm gonna lose everything overnight. But I shd've known that this day's coming. From the day I did that thing. I shd never have done that. And I still feel guilty, damnit, I've been such an asshole..
Conscience? Moral? Well, nah....if I'd those, I wouldn't have kept mum bout it for so long....It's just the mental stress I can't handle no longer.....before I say it all out and cast myself into lifetime damnation. I'd like to apologize...to whom I'm saying sorry to is none of your concerns. Just know that I'm sorry and if I'd a second chance, I never would have done it.
*takes a deep breath* Oh well....here it goes...it was that day...that time...I could never forget.....I wanted to try it at least once in my life......and so I did it, I typed all these to waste your time and now I'm feeling proud of it.
Hi.
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